Last night I went to bed nervous for all of the details of the trip. I was anxious about not forgetting major details, over-looking things for Roger and the kids....and I struggled. Alot. I said to God, "what was I thinking? Why did I want to do this again?....I could so easily have skipped this this time and here I am, freaking out about it, wishing....." and I didn't sleep well. I asked God to reveal to me in a dream, in the night, what I was going for.
Once sleep found me, mercifully, I slept hard and well. I woke up this morning knowing I needed to get in the Word. Whenever nerves take hold, the word of the Lord calms me and sets me back upright. (and, of course.....slays to silence the voices of fear and doubt that do NOT come from God).
I spent time praying for my friends who left today for a week in Haiti. One verse on their prayer guide was Psalm 23. The Lord is my Shephard, I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures....he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. Yes. He does. He did. Prayer. Scripture, worship songs. Peace. Joy. An inspirational email revealing more of how God is working in India to bring Christian revival....and the best part (for me) is that He is choosing to use sweet little babies to do it. and.....He chose to use me. Smile. Deep breath. Nod.
Last night at bible study, we were left to reflect on a question: I've got Jesus. Why do I need the Spirit? Well. For moments like this. Salvation in Jesus' name could get me to India to serve and love and give....because it is biblical. The Spirit. The SPIRIT of the Living God is the one who recognizes my fear, my weakness, my unworthiness....and He takes hold of Me. He holds Me. He shows Me. He reminds me and inspires me and blesses me and ignites Holy Fire in Me to do what He called me to do.....to Go.
I'm excited again....because the Holy Spirit helps us live out the will of God in our lives. And not to just live it, or survive it, or endure it.....but to get fired up, to get excited, to get infused with joy and favor for it. Holy Spirit, continue to help me. I just don't want to do life without you.
Once sleep found me, mercifully, I slept hard and well. I woke up this morning knowing I needed to get in the Word. Whenever nerves take hold, the word of the Lord calms me and sets me back upright. (and, of course.....slays to silence the voices of fear and doubt that do NOT come from God).
I spent time praying for my friends who left today for a week in Haiti. One verse on their prayer guide was Psalm 23. The Lord is my Shephard, I shall not want. He makes me to lie down in green pastures....he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. Yes. He does. He did. Prayer. Scripture, worship songs. Peace. Joy. An inspirational email revealing more of how God is working in India to bring Christian revival....and the best part (for me) is that He is choosing to use sweet little babies to do it. and.....He chose to use me. Smile. Deep breath. Nod.
Last night at bible study, we were left to reflect on a question: I've got Jesus. Why do I need the Spirit? Well. For moments like this. Salvation in Jesus' name could get me to India to serve and love and give....because it is biblical. The Spirit. The SPIRIT of the Living God is the one who recognizes my fear, my weakness, my unworthiness....and He takes hold of Me. He holds Me. He shows Me. He reminds me and inspires me and blesses me and ignites Holy Fire in Me to do what He called me to do.....to Go.
I'm excited again....because the Holy Spirit helps us live out the will of God in our lives. And not to just live it, or survive it, or endure it.....but to get fired up, to get excited, to get infused with joy and favor for it. Holy Spirit, continue to help me. I just don't want to do life without you.
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